Melissa Carolyn

I'm not dead...

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 06:01:39 GMT

...really, I'm not. <3
I'm just lazy and there hasn't been much excitment in my life. =P

Well, I did make some friends at college. Finally. The past year and a half of school has been spent going to class and being by myself. So it's definitely a welcome change to have people to hang out with. I'm slow at making friends. =P

I'll try keep up with the updates.

SaKi~~<3

Progress Made This Week

Wed, 27 Feb 2008 20:29:43 GMT

Academics~~
~~One step closer to declaring my major
~~Got a 91 on my French midterm (still have to actually take the midterms for the other three)

Socialization~~
~~Actually hung out with people instead of sitting in my room doing nothing

Life~~
~~Taking it more seriously in some aspects, less seriously in others
~~Realized that being shy is slightly selfish ~~ trying to fix that

Back in the Saddle Again

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 03:08:41 GMT

Ok, so I spent the couple hours before, and the walk to, French class fuming about it's insanity. I hated it. I hated all the work. I toiled over all those workbook pages and it was so time consuming and irritating. I wanted to leave and forget about school. I wanted to cry. I felt smothered. I wanted to break out of it and do something - to lash out at this suppression. I wanted to put on a bandana and shout 'arg!' I wanted to loot something. I wanted anarchy! xO

But, being the law abiding citizen I am, I went to class. And I was still miserable. For half the class period I was on the road to the Doldrums. I was ready to go back to my room and weep. Just wallow in my self-pity and loneliness.

But then, a miracle occurred. In the middle of class I realized I knew the answers! I wanted to answer questions! The homework paid off! I was happy again! Excited even. I thought, 'What was I thinking? I love French! Who knew doing your work would help you learn?! (insert huge 'DUH' here)'

And I was back in the saddle again.

(Told ja I'd live ;3 ~~~<3)

Fuck It

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 23:35:05 GMT

French homework can eat dirt.
This girl is tired of the overwhelming amount.
All work makes Mel a frustrated student.
rier hgptsioe hasre hgoiasehr g

I did enough. The rest will have to be handed in Tuesday. Thursday is finished as far as I'm concerned. I want to sleep and do nothing else.

Lemon Jello Kite Mongers~!!!! O_o

(Don't worry, I'll live. ~~~<3)

Happy Valentine's Day!!

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 16:46:19 GMT

I want to wish everyone a Happy Valentine's Day. ~~~~<3

A note: Valentine's Day is a day for LOVE, not just for couples or for singles to whine or such. People should be appreciating the love they have, whether it be boyrfiend/girlfriend, friend, or family. So please, no complaining people. Thank you. <3

Update...

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 04:19:28 GMT

Yeah, I was supposed to do one of my 'Trilingual' posts yesterday. But not having laptop at school kinda makes it hard to get online. Plus, I have to wait til after French class at 9:30 at night to write anything. And last night was all cold and snowy. I just didn't feel like coming to the computer lab. I've also decided to only write 'Trilingual' posts when there'll be something meaningful in them, rather than just, 'oh we went over some other grammar stuffs is all.' So, I'll write when I feel like it. =P

On another note, I've decided to start the process of declaring a major. As a second year student, we have until the end of the school year to do it. But I'm thinking of studying abroad next year so I figure I should declare my major right away now that I've decided on it and get going on applying to study in England. I decided to major in Linguistics and I'm sort of aiming to study at the University of Sussex near London. Out of all the programs offered through Rutgers for studying abroad in England, I think Sussex is my best choice. And it being an hour train ride from London is a good part of it. Having been to London before and loving it so, I want to be as close as possible, but at the same time give myself a new environment to explore. Hopefully I can get the application process going sometime soon. This means I have to talk to my dean (about declaring my major), then someone in the Linguistics department about studying abroad, and maybe even a study abroad adviser to help me figure it all out. =P

Hope everyone has a Happy Valentine's Day tomorrow! ~~~~~~~~~<3

It's That Time Again...

Fri, 08 Feb 2008 04:04:24 GMT

Trilingual Thursday~~~<3 (a.k.a. Trilingualese take two)

日本語: 今日、私たちは「past tense short form」をべんきょうしました。あした、クイズがあります。クラスは楽しいと思います。私の先生が好きです。Ok, my brain stopped working. I can't think in Japanese right now 1) because it was so much earlier in the day; 2) I just came from French; 3) I'm using a school computer that doesn't have Japanese text (Edit ~ I stand corrected - I just tried changing the settings and it worked xP); 4) I'm tired - today was a long day. xP

Français: Aujourd'hui, nous avons étudié la negatives formes. (par exemple, ne...plus, ne...rien, ne...personne, etc) Puis, nous avons discuté <<Le Petite Nicolas et Les Copains>>. C'est une collection de mingonnes histoires de Nicolas et ses copains. Je l'aime bien. Enfin, nous avons vu un petit film de français. Maintenant, j'ai beacoup de devoirs.

ugh, running out of steam again. ~~~<3 I need sleep.

Bonsoir, おやすみなさい。~~~~~~~<33333

~~~~~~~~~~~~<3

Thu, 07 Feb 2008 16:20:02 GMT

Happy Lunar New Year to everybody! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~<3

Oh Happy Day...

Wed, 06 Feb 2008 19:14:49 GMT

*~flails~* I'm so happy! Today is such a beautiful day. It's warm enough not to need a coat and slightly overcast. It feels like Spring is just around the corner. It even smells like Spring - like I can literally smell the grass growing and coming alive again. Granted, there's also a hint of rain in there, but that's obviously because it's been drizzling on and off lately. But that just makes things even better! I love the smell of rain. And of Spring. So, of course, I'm extra happy. I just love when weather does that. It can actually make you want to go outside. I am so ready for Spring to be here. I'm tired of being cooped up in my dorm room all day and only coming out for classes, and the occasional meal. xP I actually had a fleeting notion to take advantage of Free Transit Week and slip out to New York City for the day. (FYI: Free Transit Week is when NJTransit trains and buses allow students with ID to ride for free up and down the northeastern coast. It's usually around the beginning of the semester) But I have work to do, so I'll have to enjoy the weather hear in New Brunswick instead. x3

Hope everyone else is having a great day! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~<3

Tri, Tri, Tri to understand...

Wed, 06 Feb 2008 03:11:19 GMT

Bonsoir~~~<3

I've decided that my journal needs structure and so am going to post biweekly entries pertaining to the two language classes I'm taking this semester. I have Japanese and French every Tuesday and Thursday, so today will be a Trilingual Tuesday post. ~~~<3 I'll talk about what we did in class, if there is anything significant to discuss. Sometimes I'll write parts of the entries in each language. Maybe. Let me know what you think...

Japanese: Today, Balite Sensei was very encouraging when it came to how well we do in class. She said that she herself was not a great student in Japanese when she first started. She made just passing marks, so we shouldn't be discouraged when we do poorly. We just have to persevere. That's how she ended up becoming a teacher. Hooray for Balite Sensei. ~~~~<3333

French: French has been a little slow. It's an intermediate course and because it's not too far into the semester yet, we've basically been just reviewing. Hopefully, we'll start learning new information soon. <3

Not much to report tonight, so I guess I'll go get something to eat now. I'm hungry. >_<

TTFN~~~~~<33333

French..

Mon, 04 Feb 2008 03:40:26 GMT

Ugh! I have so much French work to do. My professor decided to overload us. I have a 1-page composition due Tuesday. I have lab workbook pages to fill out, on top of regular workbook pages. I have to read a short story and answer questions about it by Thursday. And I have some weird internet thing as well. It's really not so bad when you think about it, but I have other work to do too, so it all may be a little bothersome. I actually started some of it, so I'm not really behind. I'm gonna go work on some more of it now.

Ta~

TV Shows I Like to Watch

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 07:25:12 GMT

(In no particular order)

House
Bones
Psych
Monk
That 70's Show
The Office
Lost
How I Met Your Mother
NCIS
Criminal Minds
Boson Legal
30 Rock
Chuck
My Name is Earl
Scrubs
ER
Grey's Anatomy
Numb3rs

~~~~Can't think of anymore~~~~

A Reorg! A Reorg!

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 04:18:50 GMT

I needed a change of venue. So I changed my layout. Nothing special. ^_^

A Rant...

Thu, 31 Jan 2008 00:38:59 GMT

I have a friend who is a hardcore student of Japanese, as in she talks about nothing but Japanese all the time. And I'm kind of getting sick of it. Yeah, I'm taking Japanese too and having someone to discuss it with is nice, but there's only so much time you can spend talking about one topic. I mean, life is full of other topics of discussion. And now she's started taking up Italian, which is giving me mixed feelings. I sort of wanted her to take French so I'd have someone to discuss French with, but she kind of dissed it when she was telling me about deciding on taking up a second (third if you count native English) language, not that she has no right to take up a different language, I'm all for it; I want to add more languages to my own list as well, but now I know she's going to be talking non-stop about Italian on top of the Japanese. Plus, she'll be telling me how her Japanese will give her a weird accent when she speaks Italian. It's just, I know I'm going to be bothered, but at the same time I feel wrong for being bothered. Maybe I'm just being annoyed over nothing. It's not like I have to talk to her (hear her talk) all the time. =P

On a more positive note, I'm enjoying all my classes this semester. I'm especially enjoying discovering the differences between Linguistics and Linguistic Anthropology as I am taking a class in both subjects. I wonder which I will like more, the scientific aspect or the social aspect of Language. ~~~<3

Update-ish

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 19:47:40 GMT

I wouldn't expect anyone to really notice, but I haven't posted in a while. Mainly because I've been lazy or nothing much has been going on. I'm getting by I guess. This is actually making me realize that my life could use some improving. I'm going to have to work on that this year. ^_^;;

Random Thoughts, Questions, Ideas, Happenings: Anything and Everything

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 19:10:29 GMT

It was with much internal struggling that I finally came to the conclusion to put everything under a cut. I was debating between being evil and leaving a heaping of post-ness, or being nice and making a cut. The latter prevailed. My good conscience won. Then I thought about just putting certain parts under various cuts, but, in this instance, my laziness overruled the idea with a 'just dump it all under one cut and let everyone else figure it out.' Thus, the single cut was born:

First off, some warnings on how this was written. I jump from random thought to random happening to random etcetera etcetera. So, if you don't like sudden changes (kinda like, "and now for something completely different") be gone. Go and be happy, I wouldn't want you to suffer. Unless that's what you want, then by all means...

Anyway, on with the whatevers:

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Leaving class today, I was walking behind a guy with one of those Puma shoulder bags. If you don't know what I'm talking about, too bad. I've seen them around and always liked how they look. I thought, 'I want a Puma bag. Those are nice bags.' And then I continued down the block thinking, 'Puma Puma Puma Puma Puma Puma Puma Puma....' Yes, that's what I did.

My fascination with the Puma bag (Puma Puma Puma Puma) led me to think about how much I like bags. And shoes. And then I said to myself, "Stop denying your femininity. You love bags and shoes and pretty clothes. Be proud." So I'm going to take a more positive approach to fashion. Or rather, a more open positive approach. Yes, I'm a closet fashion fiend. And I've finally admitted to it. If that changes your opinion about me, that's your problem, not mine. <3

Speaking of bags, I saw a guy with this little orange knapsack that I once saw at the mall for like $50. I was both surprised and envious to see someone with it. I would have bought the bag when I saw it, but who wants to pay 50 bucks for a tiny little bag? So not worth it.

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The dining hall here at school has safety signs that tell you how to help choking victims with the Heimlich Maneuver. It got me wondering when exactly people started using such a life-saving technique. So I googled it. According to this website, HeimlichHistory, this idea, and it's primitive variations, is fairly new to medical history. I'm honestly surprised.

On the bus ride to class, I also started to wonder how the Earth got it's name. Once again, googled it. This first link, Earth?, basically says that there's no real way of knowing it's origin. It's like God, we don't know where either of them came from.

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If I ever become a teacher (highly unlikely) and I have to grade papers (very highly unlikely) my students will lose massive points for not using a comma before 'and' in a list. For example, 'On the table was a pear, an apple, a cherry, and a banana.' They will come to me in fiery complaint, but my justification will be irrefutable - It's just so fucking logical. There's a difference between an 'and' without a comma and an 'and' with a comma. Without means that the two terms on either side of it are related. With means that it's the last object in the list. So, we can use both kinds in the following sentence, 'On the table was a pear, an apple and it's worm, a cherry, and a banana.' If the students still don't like it, they can kiss my ass. And that will be the extent of my teaching career. Which is why I will never be a teacher. Not to mention all the other horrible things I'll say to the kids.

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I need to exercise my camera more. If it could gain weight from nonuse, it would be one fat little camera. I want to be one of those crazy people taking pictures of random things at weird angles. Then I'll post all my pictures for your viewing pleasure. Because I obviously have nothing better to do with my time. <_<

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There's a scene from Family Guy where Lois is holding random, common things whose names you could also use as slang for breasts. At the supermarket, a man comments on Lois' melons and she's actually holding melons. He says 'Nice hooters,' and she's holding owls. For some reason I was thinking about this scene and I continued it with, 'Nice rack,' 'Nice globes,' 'Nice boobs,' 'Nice breasts.' Yes, I'm weird, but you should know that already.

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Yesterday I had to go to someone's dorm to finish a group project for French. He lives in Stonier. And I must say, he's a lucky bastard. Their rooms are huge compared to mine. And they have a decent sized bathroom. Darn them and their nice rooms. T_T

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After French today I went to Wendy's because I had a craving for it. My recent train of thought has been, 'You need to break from routine. This is your time. Do what you want with it. No one's watching. Go nuts.' So, I indulged with a chocolate Oreo frosty. Mmmmm, Oreo Frosty....
But seriously, I really need to break out of the habit of doing the same thing everyday. Which is just going to class and occasionally eating something. And maybe doing homework. I know, I'm a bad student. >_< Please don't hit me. >_< (<-----still hasn't written that psych essay due last Monday. o_o)

Another train of thought that I've been trying to adhere to is, 'Stop rehashing embarrassing experiences. Even if they're only embarrassing in your own head. As soon as you start thinking about what you should have said and how stupid you must have looked, stop! Think about something else. Like evil bunnies, or happy marzipan.' Yes, happy marzipan.

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At the student center, while I was eating my Wendy's meal, I saw a kid that I recognized from the other day. I was on a bus and he was walking down the street. My first thought upon seeing him was, 'woah, an alien boy.' So, obviously I'd recognize him when I saw him again today. He's this tall, really skinny, tiny-headed, flat-faced alien kid. Honestly, he's creepy looking. Of course, I'd never say it to his face. But it got me wondering, 'what's it like to be someone who causes such an insane reaction upon first encounter (pardon my unintentional E.T. vocabulary usage)? What if some one had strange thoughts upon meeting me? Does anyone know what thoughts they probably invoke in others? Do their friends ever think the same, or discuss it? Am I thinking too much? =P'

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In accordance with my 'my time, my rules' train of thought, I have also decided to start jotting down random thoughts and ideas for later contemplation. And to write in here, of course. I've also started writing and drawing whenever I feel like it. I'm usually too lazy to do either, but yesterday I had the urge to write a story, so I opened up a word document and started writing. Yes, I know I still have that other story I was writing for NaNo, but sometimes you gotta move forward before you can go back. I think.

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On the bus today there were two women having a conversation in French. I might have been able to understand it better if I could have heard it better. Other people were talking and the bus engine makes lots of noise, especially in the back. Plus, I couldn't watch them talking because one woman kept giving me a look like, 'why are you watching me, stop it.' So I stopped. It felt rude anyway.

I also saw a couple on the bus and it got me to thinking about how I like to couple-watch. People-watching is fun, but couple-watching is too. They get all cutesy and cuddly. It's so adorable. X3 Heh, now this has got me thinking about this one time when I was visiting a friend in the city. We were at a bar/club place. People were standing, sitting, moving about, but this one couple started making out in the middle of it all. It wasn't like absurdly gross, overdoing-it kind of kissing. They were just kissing. Only they kept going. It was like they felt they were the only ones in the room and wouldn't stop. Granted, they were probably drunk, but I like to think they really liked each other and all that romanticalness. =P

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My cell phone has a demo version of Tetris that only lets you use fourteen blocks, then kicks you out. So, when I want to kill time I play fourteen-block-limit Tetris. But that eventually gets boring, so I started making symmetrical constructions. That led me to thinking of the Rorschach Inkblot Tests. I started to have an imaginary conversation with the imaginary therapist giving the test. It was a one-sided conversation, but I think I brought up some good points. Like, 'Who's to say what I'm telling you isn't just covering up what I really think. If I were discussing the inkblots with a friend, I'd probably have a totally different answer to what it looks like. And whose to say both answers aren't equally indicative of something worthy of psychological examination? Obviously, inkblot tests can be just as meaningless. So really, just how useful can they be?' I felt like finding other people's opinions, so I googled it. This website, RorschachRoar, was similar to my thoughts. But clearer. More thought-out. Check it out if you want. Otherwise, keep reading. Or don't. Whatever floats your boat.

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I'm going to have so much studying to do this week. I have finals until next Friday. I have to read the books for my classes. I stopped somewhere along the way. Not good. My Child Development Psychology final is on Monday. Then French on Wednesday. And Anthropology and Japanese on Friday. So I won't be home til the 21st. =[ I can't wait to go home. I'm so done with school for now. I wish we could just go home today. On the bright side, at least classes are done. Today was the last day. Now it's study time! Must study study study!

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Don't be alarmed, but I think I'm subconsciously depressed. Or maybe some kind of depression denial. Perhaps even a closet depressed person. Either way, I'm not the conventional kind of depressed. I do show signs, like not wanting to get out of bed or do anything, like my work. I could honestly stay in bed all day if I wanted. And I have, a couple times. I don't even get up to eat. I just lay there in various modes of sleep. I also have occasional crying spells when the negative feelings have a chance to pile up. But, when I'm around other people I don't act depressed. I'm actually, genuinely happy and having fun. I don't understand why it works that way though. I have no motivation to do anything. I feel like I'm in a hazy, fuzzy, cloudy fog. But being aware of it is a step in the right direction, so I'm ok. I will be ok. My new trains of thought will aide me in my quest for happiness! I can do it! Rarg! (ok...i guess that's an inspirational interjection.)

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I just saw a perfume commercial with Keira Knightly. They have LOVE playing in the background. You know, the one that goes, 'L is for the way you look at me. O is for the only one...' yada yada - You get the idea. Anyway, cute commercial. Just thought I'd share.

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Ok. So, the crazy train has run out of steam. It needs to recuperate. I think there's plenty here already for everyone to mull over. So, ciao, I'm off to la-la land. おやすみ。 Bonne nuit. *goes dancing off into the sunset* 'puma puma puma'

~~~~~~~<3 <-----Balloon!!!

=P
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Spanish Moss

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 07:06:20 GMT

Earthquakes

Water Lilies

Fat Camp

Torn Asunder

Magazine Rack

Lazy-Boy Recliner

Smoke Gets in Your Eye

Leaves of Green

Seahorses

Lima Beans

★☆★☆★☆★☆

Nonsense

An Update

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 09:41:08 GMT

I know, It's been a while. Nothing much has been going on. Doing school work. Being lazy. Not doing my Nano. Yes, I haven't been writing it. It's Nov 21, and i have ~2200 words. But it is my first attempt. >_< (please don't hit me). I don't know what else to say. I really haven't been doing anything interesting.

hmm.....

oh, I know what's interesting. I had a friend stay over one weekend and on the first night she came over we were discussing how neither of us really interacts with guys, let alone guys interacting with us. After that conversation, all weekend we were approached by guys. Not necessarily in a flirty way, just talking to us. Like, when we were sitting in Starbuck's one guy started talking to us about kanji because he saw us typing in Japanese on our laptops. Another guy asked to borrow a cell phone to make a local call since he was from europe. There was also a random dude who started talking to us outside of the karaoke place we go to in the city. He said my friend looked like she was 100% swiss and I looked like a Filipino Korean. (She being of eastern european descent and I being chinese, irish, and german.) O_o The weirdest though would have to be the guy who decided to flirt with me through a window. We were at a pizza place in NYC and they had bar-type seating - like with stools at a long, high table - it was along the window, looking out onto the street. We were just sitting there eating our pizza when I noticed a guy stop in front of the window and look at me. He started making gestures reffering to my pizza as if asking if it was good, nodding his head. I was like, yeah it's good, nodding my own head and eating my pizza. But he was kinda being suggestive about it and even winked at me. I just continued with affirming that the pizza was good and I guess he was satisfied cause he went away. It was very odd and slightly scary. My friend was surprised at my calmness throughout. In my head though, I was begging him to move on.

Anyway, it's 430 in the a.m. and i have class in the morning, so i guess i should get some sleep.

Happy Thanksgiving.

NaNo luv

Sat, 03 Nov 2007 01:36:59 GMT

My friend doesn't believe that a writer's characters can hijack the story and change it's course. I hope her attempt at NaNo this year proves her wrong.

Moi: A Day in the Life

Fri, 02 Nov 2007 04:12:36 GMT

1) Get woken up by the alarm clock at 7:30am and snooze it til 9am. At said time, roll out of bed and get ready for class. At 9:30am head for class. 9:50am, French.

2) French: Review the passé composé, the present tense, and the future proche. Start going over the imparfait, yet another past tense.

3) After class ends at 11:10am, head to the dining hall for a late breakfast. Mmm, scrambled eggs and bacon. And tater tots.

4) Go back to dorm room and fart around for an hour. Think about working on your novel for NaNo, but don't actually do it.

5) At 12:40pm head to next class. 1:10pm, Japanese.

6) Japanese: Oh goody, a chapter test. Breeze through test and realize afterwards that you definitely got two questions wrong but assure yourself that everything else is correct. Because it is. Sit around while the most of the rest of the class takes the whole period to finish. Leave class at 2:30pm.

7) Walk over to Starbuck's and stay there for three hours. During said hours a) talk to friend on phone who can't seem to stop talking, b) drink coffee, c) watch freaky homeless man harass customer at next table, twice, d) read ahead in Japanese text and learn the next chapter, adjectives e) leave before it gets dark.

8) 6pm, check emails and such. sit around reading random posts. 7:30pm, call mom. <3

9) 8pm - My Name is Earl; 9pm - The Office, 9:30pm - Scrubs, 10pm - ER.

10) Decide not to grab late-night dining hall take-out because a) too lazy, b) you got snacks, c) you're not really hungry d) you can eat tomorrow.

11) Think about NaNo-ing some more but still not do it. Post a journal entry.

12) Maybe stay up NaNo-ing despite having an 8:10am class tomorrow.

~savvy

Life After Jack Sparrow

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 16:45:13 GMT

I have always enjoyed the many characters of Johnny Depp. But, every time, it was always easy to move on to the next character. It may be because there was more than one Pirates movie, but after the last one, I had forgotten that life goes on. I forgot that Johnny Depp would be moving on to new characters. The end of Jack Sparrow felt like the end of Johnny Depp. I didn't even know I thought this way until I saw the trailer for Sweeney Todd. I always knew it was coming, but to actually see proof, that was when it all sunk in. When I finally realized this, I also realized that it would mean the potential for even bigger and better things, better roles, better movies, better characters. I don't know how great Sweeney Todd will be (hopefully very) but I know that I will at least be happy to see Johnny Depp once more on the big screen.

<333

Happy Update

Wed, 31 Oct 2007 16:59:36 GMT

A couple things I feel like mentioning, all of which have made me happy. ^__^

1) I wrote a letter to my friend in Japanese. She's a year ahead of me. She showed my letter to her teacher yesterday and her teacher told her that it was very good. ^_^

2) I got my Japanese midterm back yesterday and I got a 98%. There was only one grade higher, a 99.6%. Yay me. ^_^

3) I picked up a copy of the campus newspaper and there was a mini movie poster for Sweeny Todd with Johnny Depp on it. XDDD I can't wait til Christmas. <33 Of course, I had to take a couple extra copies. x3

4) It's Halloween! I may not have any reason to dress up, but today does allow one to wear extra orange, which is my favorite color. X3

5) NaNoWriMo starts tonight at midnight!!! I'm so excited. Especially because I have no clue what will come out during those first few seconds that I start writing. I'm kind of anxious to see what I write. xP

I can't think of any more reasons for being happy. I guess I'm just at the top of a wave today (to reference my wave metaphor from my previous entry). ^_^

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! <3333

Things Are Looking Up

Fri, 26 Oct 2007 00:46:45 GMT

I think I'm coming out of my low. Today went pretty well. I had both French and Japanese, which always makes me feel good, as Thursdays are the only days that I have both at once. Things got even better when I decided to stop at Starbuck's. For anyone who doesn't know, Starbuck's is where I usually hang out with my friend back home, so sitting at one is comforting enough. While I was there I wrote my friend a letter in Japanese and rewrote it in French. That made me feel even better. Then I went shoe shopping. I bought myself a new pair of boots for the winter. Who knew shopping could make you feel better. I guess I'm more of a girl than I thought. xP

So, all in all, today was a good day.

Thoughts

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 02:13:22 GMT

Living here on campus I've realized that college life is like a wave. There are high points where you think living alone is the best thing to happen to you. Then there are lows where being alone feels so lonely. Right now, I'm in a low. I feel so disconnected from everyone and everything seems tedious and boring. And when I'm feeling lonely I tend to be more susceptible to emotional events and more likely to succumb to tears. I watched a commercial last night and started crying. It could be just that I don't really have anyone around here who I can hang out with, but either way it isn't fun. And being shy doesn't help either. *sigh* Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

Yay...

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 20:59:17 GMT

I recruited my friend to write a novel for National Novel Writing Month. She's gonna come visit me in a few weeks and we'll spend that weekend at Starbuck's writing our novels. I can't wait. <3